A New Attempt at Something Old

For quite sometime I have had people ask me to publish a blog and to be honest I was just scared to do it. This simple reason is that I have the gift of "ticking people off". I am not sure why I have this gift. Maybe it is from God and He is trying to have me learn some lesson. I also have the gift of worry. People tell me all the time, "Joey, don't worry about it. God has everything under control." Well, to be honest. I realize that God has control but it is everyone else that I am worried about. I want to have more self confidence (people say I have alot but I really do not). I want to be like other pastor's that have the gift of growing a church and when people get angry about sitting in their seat they can say, "Hey, get here earlier." When issues do arise and they always do, I want to deal with them calmly and with great wisdom. I just get nervous and run my mouth with a high tone (I was told that my a church member.) I guess, what I want more than anything is to just "be". I used to look forward to new opportunities and challenges. Now, I just cringe and wonder when the other shoe may fall. This might just be the worries of a middle aged man with new babies in the house, with a growing church, and too many obligations. But on the other hand, maybe this is just depression talking and the need for a bit more sunshine. Well, I guess if I am going to have a blog......here it is. And if you read it, you might get more than you expected.